Forgive Yourself

….. OH NO IT’S 1:27am!

I’m in a pigeon stretch after sewing for the last approximately 7 hours, scrolling on my phone. I realized that I missed my first Friday post in months- and sink lower into my stretch.

It’s still Friday if I’m awake right?

I’ve been in a self imposed posting streak since around January, and recently went from posting every Tuesday and Friday to Friday’s. In order to produce the quality content I wanted to, and work on many new exciting projects, I had to write once a week. However, in an intense experimental sewing session that lasted several hours, I realized too late that I hadn’t posted on time for the first time in months!

Yes, I was frustrated. I broke the self discipline that I have spent months building. However, I knew that a post could wait until the next day. I was proud of the work I got done that day, and no quality writing would get done at 2 in the morning. There was no choice but to forgive myself.

In the last few months I have had Friday’s where I had a comfy few posts lined up. Friday afternoon car rides where I’m looking for inspiration in the wild flowers passing by. Friday evenings on the dance floor, realizing I have two hours left to post, and spending a tanda or two channeling all of my creative energy. Sticking to a schedule has definitely forced me to be creative even if I didn’t feel like it. The feeling of accomplishment when I post is always so satisfying.

But life has hiccups. Things don’t always go according to plan. Instead of getting mad at myself I listed the things that I did accomplish that day. Recognizing when I am being negative, and addressing it, then trying to find something positive has really improved my mental health. Forgive yourself. There is always another chance tomorrow to try again.

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